on (re)treating

My sister-in-law asked me if I felt like it was a treat. Yes, my 4 days with Sonja Grace at her Physical Body Meditation R E T R E A T was definitely a Treat to my spirit, mental and physical body. I really can’t think of a better gift to thyself, which directly translates as a gift to my family.

The retreat was beautiful. Deep, insightful, healing, and inspiring. There were about 16 of us. I loved that it was 9-5 each day, ending earlier the last day. I actually was ready to go back to my family by 5 each day. I loved just driving to Turtle Bay each morning and having that as the space for which we communed, sunk in, and went on our journey. It felt so safe and spiritual and cozy.

The funny things about these experiences with healers and Guides and self meditation is that you just really never know what is going to come up. And you can be “on your A game” for a couple days and then BAM you come upon some painful memory or feeling in your gallbladder and you find yourself crying so hard. And then it’s released and you find yourself a little lighter, a little more connected to Earth and Source and you see your higher self smiling a little bigger and saying “yesssss, there you go, YEESSSSS”…..

I always think of my time with Sonja as layers being peeled back. And it can be uncomfortable at times, but oh so good and rewarding if I let go and t r u s t.

I appreciate that in all of my time with Sonja, I have never felt any judgement. I also appreciate that there is no “right or wrong” when she has us share our reflections.

So my experience this time was deep. And blurry. I reflect on the past 4 days and it seems like it was years ago. Or in a different lifetime?…. I know we went through our physical body and did a lot of healing work.

If I had to summarize what came up for me, it was mostly to keep trusting myself. Especially my left/ feminine side. I saw her emerging, and wanting to feel more honored for the last 21 months of pregnancy and raising a 1 year old. My bladder wanted more appreciation! My uterus was like, hmmmm….. ok I think I’m ready to retire! I felt a lot of healing in my 2nd chakra. And my 3rd chakra was ready for that too!…. You know, just a lot of “overcompensation” going on in my body. And the feminine side was like- ok, I got this!… Let me take lead a little more and dance, and cook, and C R E A T E and listen and nurture. And my masculine side was like- “Finally! …. ok just PLEASE trust in your intuition and truth! You know the answers!…. You know what we need. I am ready to relax.”

My higher self told me to just release the “outcome” that I am striving for, and really honor and nurture and get into my 2nd chakra (create, write, dance, move, cook)….. and do things for my soul and family…. and in doing that I will be achieving that which I seek.

I am so grateful for Sonja and her love and guidance. I feel like she could have given me some “answers” at times…. but she knows that if she would have given them to me, it would have gotten me to the destination without the journey. And as you and I know, the journey is the p o i n t. It’s the peace, truth, love and meaning that we seek. And in that, we don’t NEED to arrive at a destination. or the journey IS the destination?…. hahahahah ohhhh my brain is doing flips!

Sonja really kept guiding me to my truth. Trusting in my higher self. Her grace, truth, and love really penetrated me.

She spoke on so many topics that were so profound and inspiring, that I feel I’m still downloading a lot.

I had my most profound experience in meditation yesterday while laying down. Sonja guided us into the hara, and to find deep peace, and while in there, I felt out of my body, and tingly limbs and such pleasure. I didn’t want to leave. And then afterwards I was crying because I was just overwhelmed with gratitude…. and peace and love.

We opened and closed the ceremony out on the point in front of the hotel. It was so special and magical to be part of her ceremony. She prays to each direction and we all received some tobacco to make a prayer with. It felt so nice to be part of something so sacred.

And now the path of the (re) treat leads to the (re) entry to “normal” life…. Can I find inner peace amongst the chaos? Can making lunches and breakfasts at 7AM, while changing a diaper and getting kids dressed be my meditation to inner peace?…….